After doing several tests I am sure the results is not a coincidence...

Meanings behind my name: :)

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.
You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.
Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.
You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.
You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong.
You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know.
You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.
You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.
You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in.
You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising.
You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.
You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.
You have the classic “Type A” personality.

You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life.
You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip.
People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.
And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.
You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated.
You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want.
You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.
You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.
You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

I had a weird day yesterday long story short...
I ended up talking with Aidy for 2 hours in a car in front of a cafe...she just parked her car and we suddenly start to chat and we didn't realized about the time...

Aidy wrote this for me...I guess I should share...this is what I feel and she also feel the same thing...means that u never alone...

Dandelion Snow

bask in the sun and morning sky,
I am a dandelion snow
calling the wind to come by
When will it come?
God, let me know. I wanna gooo!!!!

In my solitude I stay
I am a dandelion snow
still waiting in dismay
I am dying in harrow.
Summer! Do you know?

Oh Sky I wish you whisper me
And let your hands breeze me
feel and grasp me
take all my misery
And Set me free!!

...

I need to heal my self by my self

when the sun is dawn and small colorful bulbs in my room are on
(imagining like stars shining in the dark night sky) ...
I do a short trip within my self - my soul

I found these words in a piece of random paper that I am going to throw away.
"If we really want to love, we must learn how to forgive ". - Mother Theresa
"The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong". - Mahatma Gandhi
"Our capacity to make peace with another person and with the world depends very much on our capacity to make peace with ourselves". - Thich Nhat Hanh
"To forgive is the highest, most beautiful form of love. In return, you will receive untold peace and happiness". - Robert Muller
"When you forgive, you essentially undo the ability to blame." When you stop blaming yourself, you start to like yourself and you're much more fun to be around. You get your power back over your life. That is the power of forgiveness". - Eldon Taylor

Forgiveness is the experience of finding peace inside and can neither be compelled nor stopped by another.
The act of forgiveness constitutes a mental bath, letting go of something that can only poison us within.

Forgiveness is the sweetest revenge - well that's a bonus...

My days in my chamber when the sun in the opposite way,,,these days

ps: thanks for my lovely cousin who drew this :)

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In my chamber...trying to solve the puzzle sizzle of "what is my nature from birth"

"All will hear my views and voice
Trial and error is my school of choice
Like a dragon, dashing and daring I appear
Fighting for those that I hold dear
I am Aries-Child of Mars"

to do...to be...and to conquer

Landed Save...this is just about me trying to get settle with myself...

Back to my home planet is not that easy like what people said. Although I was stayed in a planet next to my home planet in the same galaxy. Things are changed like it's nature. I can see more options now, options which I can't see before and I know I have the right to make choices. What I can say is I am still the same person but different; in the sense of having a new perspective on how I want to live this life and to fully understand my role of existence in the universe; where is the similarity?! I am still holding my values and faith. One important lesson is now I be able to "listening" to voices rather than "hearing", I am be able to think simple, I am using my logic more and be realistic rather than ambitious, I focus on the solution in facing challenges instead of stuck for sometimes worrying too much about something which is uncertain, I am trying to stop hurting myself...that's about me as a small particle in the universe in the planet...

I know I feel hurt but I am sure I am also hurting people around me, people that I really love and care, people who love and care about me but then I am sure everything is for a reason...and I can see now the reason is...as long the gravity is there things will happen again and again , all over again with a the same pattern...but next time ...I will be ready!