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I am sitting in my chair, trying to understand whats going on with my present life. I thought I mature enough in my age, but I think I am not. Nothing to regret no one to be blame. Just the way it is. It's hard for me to focus on something particular for the past 8 months, almost all new for me, living alone and have to decide almost everything by myself. Can't complaint can't run away, the only way is to face it and fight, focus on the solution and survive. I am sure this could be a lesson for me to take my next step, next challenges.

It will be selfish to only think about myself myself and myself again. I know someone else also feel the same thing for the pain that I feel right now. It wont be fare if I am complaining and waining all the time. It just make the things worse for us.

Another thing that I have in my mind is about dreams and reality.Like I often say " I am living my dreams" and I keep on dreaming, but then it comes to reality when you have to stand in your own feet. This is the hardest part. Now is the the time to live the present, not even one second u can change something in the past, I don't have the power to do it so it will be useless. What I got is the lesson from the past as a reminder for the future.

What I want to do now is just make myself become 'richer' and 'stronger' , then I am sure the wind itself will bring us together again, when we both are ready.