If you feeling not worth at all, remember this...

To laugh often and much;
To win the respect of intelligent people and the affection of children;
To earn the appreciation of honest critics and endure the betrayal of false friends;
To appreciate beauty,
To find the best in others;
To leave the world a bit better, whether by a healthy child, a garden patch or a redeemed social condition;
To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived.

This is to have succeeded.

[By Ralph Waldo Emerson]

Frederick Buechner...

“When you remember me, it means that you have carried something of who I am with you, that I have left some mark of who I am on who you are. It means that you can summon me back to your mind even though countless years and miles may stand between us. It means that if we meet again, you will know me. It means that even after I die, you can still see my face and hear my voice and speak to me in your heart.
For as long as you remember me, I am never entirely lost. When I’m feeling most ghost-like, it is your remembering me that helps remind me that I actually exist. When I’m feeling sad, it’s my consolation. When I’m feeling happy, it’s part of why I feel that way.”

It's been a while ...

Time will answer Yes indeed...

it's clear to me now,

Since the beginning I know I will be attach with him but I also knew that we are not meant to be for each other.

My task has been completed, after 6 years bumping around with him. I am glad that he finally dare to face his fear, fear of himself, fear of love and to be loved.

I am not regreting our friendship...I am happy that my existence could help to open someone's heart...

I feel so relief...I am happy...strange but true...:)

I fulfill my task, it's time for me to moving on...


- simply happy to be me -

I got my life extended

It’s not really my nature to have a big celebration for the day I was born, not to offend people who put a lot of effort to prepare a party or surprise, but I choose to make it usual or simple, It is a time for me to reflect – to keep my feet on the ground. As for a gift for me, it should not always be something with ribbon on the top of it - it could be anything.

The night of the 15th of April – one of my closest friend buzzed me on YM together with his another. They told me that they will call me Aunty Tya soon enough... yes, they are going to have a baby. It is a 7-week-old fetus in her womb. It is a new life being created and going to be delivered to this life. It’s amazing. It’s beautiful. My eyes were a bit watery and I smiled.

The night of 16th of April – I had a conversation with a friend of my friend which lifted a weight off my shoulders. I feel so relieved after talking with him. There was a smile on my face the whole night which lasted till the morning of 17th.

17th morning, it is the feeling of being remembered by people who know you, your family, your best friends, near or far from you they just remember you in a way. I am really happy to have received lots of messages full of wishes not only from the people whom I met everyday but also the people whom I have not met for ages or even just once. I kept smiling. :)

I went to my Father cemetery just to be close in a way with him. May he rest in peace - Love you Dad. After that on the way to my car I saw people came to the cemetery for a funeral, there are 2 funerals in two different blocks. I reflected, nothing is mortal as for us if our time has come it will come and we never know when it will come.

Moreover one of a tradition in my family, whenever someone has a birthday my mother will cook yellow rice for lunch – a symbol of prosperity and to be grateful for the life that we have.

After that I went out for a while to get some stuff...I drive my own car and
.....
I saw a man cross a wide street exactly in front of my car ...and suddenly a sedan with high speed hit him...and he just got hit by that car and kinda flew – his shoes up to the sky and I heard a big BUMP , I couldn't turn back I am so terrified less than a second that scene when the car hit that man is clearly pictured on my eyes...I saw shoes falling from the sky in front of my car, I was shocked for a while as I turn my car to the left to another street...I parked my car on the side of the road and think what I just saw. Again, if the time has come no matter where the place, the condition is it will come. Just less than a second it will end. I don’t know what happened with the man that got hit but people said that he died. I don’t know but if you see how that car hit the man with that speed his chance will be small I guess. I hope with what happened with that man it will be the best for him after all. I hope he is in HIS blessed.

I feel so blessed ... I still get a reminder from what I see in my surroundings. I have to use my time as best as I can for useful and meaningful things and show to people that I love and care about them , because we will never know when is our time will come ...

As for now,I got my life extended. I feel so blessed. Thank you GOD for all the gifts.


My gratitude to the sender of a text message - reminds me that "my life got extended" :0)

Teddy Bear Hug, this is why I love it!

There's something in a simple hug that always warms the heart.
it welcomes us back home and makes it easier to part.

A hug's a way to share the joy and sad times we go through,
or just a way for friends to say they like you 'cause you're you.

Hugs are meant for anyone, for whom we really care,
from your grandma to your neighbor, or a cuddly teddy bear.

A hug is an amazing thing. It's just the perfect way
to show the love we're feeling but can't find the words to say.

It's funny how a little hug makes everyone feel good
in every place and language, it's always understood.

And hugs don't need new equipment, special batteries or parts
just open up your arms and open up your hearts.

-with smile -

Just want to share some words :)

Dream Big,
If your dream is too fast run behind it.
If your dream is too far, walk towards it,
If your dream is too big , ... spread it , you will get it! :)
-Disney-

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009

Thanks to Ebin for sharing these words...

Group Talk: Cemetery

I went to my father cemetery the other day and I find a group of small kids running around me, it's friday so they finish school earlier. I asked one of them " what you want to be if you already grow up?" he answered me " I want to be a doctor " with his shy look. I smile.

I asked to the other kids and I looked at their face and they seems looked confuse, perhaps they are wandering " what kind of question is that " well, I stop to smile and gave them a trigger question, like " why are studying and they just don't have the answer... I really stop to smile :S I moved to the other Kid and when I asked "what you want to be if you are grow up?" Surprised look in their face, again! :( My heart feels hurt :(

How grateful I am to have dreams since I was a little...
I hope when I meet them again they have different answer ... :)